TRIGGER WARNING: Explicit language and talks of depression and low moods. Reader discretion is advised!
"And if today,
all you did was hold yourself together, I am proud of you." - Tiny Buddha
Sometimes we see strength as
something we get from accomplishing something huge but really, strength can be
found in the most smallest, mundane, and even weird places. Which I think is
pretty amazing and hopeful in itself! 💜
Despite this though, it's easy to feel stuck and that, when you're struggling, like
you won't be able to get back out of the dark place (but you will, you need to
hold on, keep fighting, keep breathing, and ask for help if you need it). This
is where I've, sadly, found myself recently . . .
I haven’t been in a good place for a couple of
weeks and it’s been tough! There’s been tears, meltdowns, anxiety attacks, and
basically going into hermit mode. 😂 I’ve
been struggling with everything which is why there wasn’t a new blog post a
fortnight ago. I didn’t have it in me to write, even this now feels somewhat
difficult, but I want to write because I really enjoy it and it also
makes me feel better. I don’t want to post just for the sake of posting,
though, nor do I want to post something that even I wouldn’t want to
read. But I’m aware, or somewhat hopeful, that there’s someone out there who
looks forward to and waits to read my blog posts so I want to make sure I’m
uploading when I can . . .
Despite being in a difficult place, I know
I’m going to be okay. I know this is just a difficult moment, I know to hold
onto hope, I know to keep pushing forward and keep going. But I just need to
recognise and get it off my chest that life is, and can be, well . . . S**t.
And not allowing yourself to feel like s**t or to feel the s**t makes you feel more
like s**t (go figure 😂).
I just want to say that I’m okay, I’m still
doing okay in my recovery, I’m just in a low place mentally and have been out
of routine for a bit due to my Mum being ill which as you can imagine has
thrown me off but she’s getting better, routines are starting to return, and
hopefully we’re on our way back. I’ve been treating myself with patience,
acceptance, kindness, and love, and if that was too much or too difficult then
I made sure that I at least treated myself with respect. (As well as trying, however
I could, whilst still badly struggling with OCD, to look after and be there for
my Mum!) 💕
I’ve been struggling with what to write for
this post because, honestly, my brain isn’t brain-ing right now! 😂 So I thought I’d write a
list of things that brings me joy as a positive and hopeful reminder for myself
and if there’s anyone else out there who’s struggling or who needs a reminder
of the good things, or maybe just wants something to distract themselves to
help them get through, then hi! Here’s a list of joyful things to remember when
things feel like crap and you’re struggling . . . 💜 (And yes, it’s multi-coloured!
It gives it a bit more of a sparkle! ✨️😂)
My List Of Joys:
Books
Music
Falling asleep with ease
Beaches
Friends
Family
Hugging my Mum
Completing an exposure task for OCD recovery
Noticing that I’m gradually feeling more comfortable doing
exposure tasks (feels great! 👌😂)
Games on my mobile (I’m literally that kid who’s like, “You got
any games?” But with my own phone! 😂)
Hugs
Dogs
Puppies (yes, I added these as 2 separate items because, let’s
be honest, they provide 2 individual levels of joy! 😂)
Dogs chewing (anyone else, NO! If you’re human and chewing
loudly and I hear you, you’re going to have a problem on your hands and it goes
by the name of Emily! 😡😂)
Just . . . Animals 🥰
Making my Mum laugh hard
Sunsets
Sunrises
When music or a certain song just hits you and
explains something you’re going through or have gone through perfectly
Writing (I would love to write a book! 🤞💜)
Making videos/TikToks and posts for Instagram
Playing board games (I love games night but no one in my family
wants to play with me because apparently I’m too “competitive”. 💁♀️🤷♀️😂)
My niece (literally anything she does! She could just be sitting
there and I melt! 🥰😂)
Dancing 💃🏼 (because we all know I
like to shimmy and shake it! 😂)
Comfort TV Shows (The Big Bang Theory, Baby Daddy,
and The Office (U.S.) are my top ones! 🙌💜)
My favourite movies (The Phantom Of The Opera (2004), Power
Rangers (2017), and Warm Bodies are at the top of that list! 💜)
My favourite TV shows (yes these are different from comfort
shows! 😂 Grey’s Anatomy,
and How I Met Your Mother are 2 that are on the list as well as my
comfort ones!)
Video games (Animal Crossing: New Horizons, Assassin’s
Creed, and GTA 5 are my favourites! 💜)
Tarot Cards (and readings) and Spirituality
Realising you’re doing and feeling better than you used to
Making someone smile/laugh
Helping others
Becoming/being the person you needed when you were younger/who
would make your younger self proud
Make-Up
Skincare
Blankets
Fairy lights
Chocolate
Hot Chocolate
These are to name a few! 😂 What are some of your joys
that help you to feel better and enjoy life? Let me know! 💜 If you have any more that
you would like to add, then comment them below or message me on Instagram or
TikTok (tagged below!)! 💜
Life is not easy and can sometimes feel like
it’s never going to get better but I know it will. And you will too, despite if
it feels like everything in you is saying otherwise. I believe in you (and me)
to keep going, to keep fighting, to keep holding on. 💜
I need strength and for that, I need to
search and remind myself of the joys in life and the things that make me feel
good and you should too. It’s easy to get lost in the bad and unhelpful
behaviours and thinking patterns of “doom and gloom” and, yes, you need to
allow yourself to notice and feel those emotions but don’t let them keep you stuck
there. Keep fighting and holding onto yourself. Keep showing up and loving
yourself, that’s what will help you to find joy in life and the strength to
carry on so that it can help you keep the feeling away of, “Hey Universe, Did
You Forget About Me?”
Thank you so much for reading, I’m sending
all the good vibes to you! 🌌
Please feel free to comment, share, and
follow me on my socials below! 💜🌌
All the best! 💜
Emily 🌌
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Helpful Links And
Resources:
(These are UK numbers and services, if you
don’t live in the UK please call a family member, friend, trusted person, your
doctor, or look online. There is help out there for you!)
• Call your GP
• Talk to a family member
• Talk to a friend or someone you trust
• Call 111 (UK)
• SHOUT: (Text) SHOUT to 85258 or visit their
website: https://giveusashout.org/
• Samaritans UK: (Phone) 116 123 or visit
their website: https://www.samaritans.org/
• Mind: https://www.mind.org.uk/
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